Sucky Mother Post

Yup.  You read right.  This post is titled correctly; no typo.  And no, I'm not drinking.  Yet.  Perhaps when I'm done airing my laundry though...

So my daughter's birthday has past; on January 9th, 2013 she turned nine.  Hard to believe and bittersweet of course-- words heard from every mothers mouth on a way-too-often basis.

So the last two birthdays Claire didn't even get a party with her darling little friends and it's entirey my fault.  I would actually like to blame Christmas (as it occurs two weeks prior to her birthday) but I expect I won't get away with that.  The stores have not too much left on the shelves for the month of January and many folk are all shopped out come this month.  It is tough to be born near Christmas.  For her seventh birthday she was so upset that it was not warm enough to have her birthday outside like her brother's (his birthday is at the end of June and there is always sunshine) so we decided to postpone it and wait for the nicer weather.  Well, March became April and April became May and May become June and that was the wettest month of the year I swear. Last  year there was just so much going on; our beloved mom and grandmother had passed away in December and the thought of having a party without her here was completely unbearable.  We are very fortunate that my sister has a wonderful large family so whenever we get together to celebrate our birthdays it is just like our own amazing party and (in my mind) that was her party the last couple of years; with her cousins and family that matter the most. 

But the last time her friends helped her blow out her candles was when that nine was upside down; which is entirely too long.  So when she chose The Lorax as her theme for her long-awaited party with her friends how could I say no?  After feeling like the sucky mom of the past couple of birthday-years-past I was not able to (without feeling guilty) ask her to choose an easier theme and so Dr. Suess' The Lorax it is! The date has finally been choosen to be February 2nd; late but not too late; close but not too close to Christmas.  It is perfect and they are (of course) predicting sunshine. 

To blog, or not to blog, that is the question..

The thing about blogging is, in order to be effective you actually need to post stuff or else what's the point?  If you post every six months or yearly (like me) you lose the interest of your readers and, if you're super unlucky like I am they have since changed their email address since your last message.  So what's the point in blogging?

Honestly, I'm not sure.  I think the point is to get those random, not-worth-writing-a-book-about thoughts-that-you-just-need-to-get-off-your-chest out there; into the random empty hole that is the internet.  Whether you have 'followers' or people who read your stuff isn't necessarily the goal.  While I'm not sure what the goal is exactly, it feels good for my fingers to be moving their 68- ish words-per-minute and typing about... nothing.

There is a lot going on in my crazy mind; things that may or may not be of interest to you but here is the place I will type them anyways... of course 'anyways' is not a word, my son reminds me regularly.  I don't understand why it is not a word.  It seems to fit into so many of my conversations better than 'anyhow' does.  So to whomever decides on what words are legitimate and which words are not (now what a fun job that would be) I would like you to reconsider yo ur decision on the word 'anyways' as it brings me great happiness~

And isn't that really the point of life; to be happy?

'Anyways', onto a more interesting blog post about my suckiness as a mother...